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Hello~! I'm here to make a short post xD
had spent the WHOLE Weekend doing 2 things.
1. Doing my homework
2. Spending almost a WHOLE day clearing up my room For CNY.
    Guess what... My room's in a mess..AGAIN.

Well, Next week is CNY. hopefully i'll be able to enjoy it, rather then to get stuck with HW. Which is...obviously gonna happen.
Tests, tests and more tests coming my way.
OH~ And i learned something fun during Chem today~

Ractivity series of metal.
Potato         Salad     Can         Make             A               Zebra Itch like (Hell) Causing Serious Gastric Pain.
Potassium Sodium Calcium Magnesium Aluminium Zinc Iron lead (Hydrogen) Copper Silver Gold Platinuim.

Cool huh~! xD
Well, I guess that's all xD I'll have to Buck up...No more slacking around...

COUNTDOWN : 2 MORE DAYS TIL KAT-TUN RELEASES SINGLE XD
CODE BLUE~ tonight NEW ep xD!
YAMANADE - Well, OBVIOUSLY~ *waiting impatiently*
What else...Yeaaah...I hope NEWS will have something soon...like i said in all my other posts...

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♥Law of the garbage truck.

One day, I hopped in a taxi and we took off for the airport. We were driving in the right lane when suddenly a black car jumped out of a parking space right in front of us.

My taxi driver slammed on his brakes, skidded, and missed the other car by just inches! The driver of the other car whipped his head around and started yelling at us.My taxi driver just smiled and waved at the guy. And I mean, he was really friendly.
So I asked, 'Why did you just do that? This guy almost ruined Your car and sent us to the hospital!'

This is when my taxi driver taught me what I now call,  'The Law of the Garbage Truck.'

He explained that many people are like garbage trucks.
They run around full of garbage, full of frustration, full of anger, and full of disappointment.
As their garbage piles up, they need a place to dump it and sometimes they'll dump it on you.
Don't take it personally.
Just smile, wave, wish them well, and move on.
Don't take their garbage and spread it to other people at work, at home, or on the streets.

The bottom line is that successful people do not let garbage trucks take over their day.

Life's too short to wake up in the morning with regrets,
So ... Love the people who treat you right. 
Pray for the ones who don't.
Life is ten percent what you make it and ninety percent how you take it!
 
Have a blessed,garbage- free day~!

This is a short story my mum sent to me through email. I have no idea where the origin is from though...So i don't take credit for this Awesome story♥ xD
" Imagine, Imagine that~ "

The pessimist finds difficult in every opportunity.
The optimist finds opportunity in every difficulty.
First say to yourself what you would be ;
and then do what you have to do.
[B45] [B43]
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YAY! The week is over! IT'S FRIDAAY!
Since morning everything's ok. Nothing much to talk about school, except...WE got scolded...AGAIN.
This time, In chinese =.= Urgghhh...My chinese teacher was really pissed today and stuff. *sigh* What to do? It's been like this for quite awhile...Since last week when we got scolded by my eng teacher. We for that ONLY lesson, became such "Angels". After that, Our horns came out.

Well, In choir, Our conductor got angry with us too...
Sops not giving their 100%...
I was shifted back to Alto from sop...
...so i'm back in Alto again.

I tried making an Icon today xD
though i think i failed...*Sigh*
Hora hora...It's the one i'm using now...[>_<]
Well...Practice makes Perfect ^__^

Since there's nothing much...
Ok~! COUNTDOWN! xD 5 MORE DAYS TIL KAT-TUN SINGLE IS BEING RELASED! xD
"The D-motion" xD *Aaah~* Addicted to that song. LOL ^___^ !
And TODAY, Hotel Point~! Koyama will be in this story's character~!!!
I can't WAIT! xD
YAMANADE too, obviously.
I hope NEWS get to release a single soon... Concert, anything is fine! 
Just as long as we NEWS fans get to hear some group activities from them soon! [>_<]
Of course, Calender will be out in march...and ONLY in march... Aaahhh....

A friend, is someone who walks in
When the whole world has walked out. [B25]
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GAAH! The torture, when will it be over!!
DANG. My day, starting of the day, was TERRIBLE!
Early in the morning, I had to Panic.
"aah!...OH NO! MY ENGLISH FILESSSSS!!" and i panicked for...2 hours++?
My gosh, I kid you not manzz. =.=||
Why is my ENG cher SO scary?!
I live like this everyday. Being so afraid of everything.
There's an expression for this in SG slang.
It's called "Kiasu" & "Kiasi" .
Kiasu = Scared of losing
Kiasi = scared of dying.
...Yupp...It's in me. XD

AHH! The CNY program, 'Don't forget the Lyrics' gave such EASY SONGS!!
REALLY EASY!!
almost ALL the songs i know!
such as...不会爱，爱不单姓，幸福不灭，只对你有感觉，ETC ETC..
Ahh! Wasted =[...There's Class points also...=[ AHhh yo...

Aah...the week's ending soon.
Tomorrow will be zee last. *OH YEAH!*
but before my week OFFICIALLY ends, I've got to get past choir practice.
I'm BACK in tha SOPS man!
I miss ALTO already *sobs sobs* !
Changing sections all of a sudden...I'm really not used to it.
Top note to the bottom...then up again... =.=

I guess school's been ok lately... Amount Tests increased, and Oh My gosh.
Speaking of which. My Accounts...Intern 'teacher' is MAD.
She's not scary. rather, I dislike her attitude.
She's not even a Teacher PLEASE.
You will feel mad if you were me.
My friend told me this " She gives us rubbish attitude, I give her rubbish work."
Oh yes. That's how much we ALL don't like her.
Here's a scene from one of my lessons this week.

I was sitting at the back row. Last.
My friend, Guy A and guy B were sitting together.
so just nice. That day, got quite a few people never come.
SO, these 2 were sitting tgt at the last 2 columns, near to the window, to the far right of the classroom, facing the whiteboard.
So this teacher impersonator came into class after my Proper teacher and went straight towards Guy A & B.
This was the convo :

Teacher : Eh, (to guy b) Move there leh. (points to the empty table at the left of his table.) I want sit middle.
Guy B: Huh...don't wan lah. I wan sit with my friend. (refering to guy A.)
Teacher: Sit over la...*donno what she says.*
Me and my friends: ...What the hell...

My friend also can't stand her, the guys. Guy B mouthed "Help me" when she wasn't looking. LOL xD poor thing.
That's not all. Oh my gosh i can continue this forever!
Yesterday's test. Pisses everybody in class off.
she just came and started shouting. AT SUCH A FRIGGIN HIGH PITCH! WTH?!
And she just continues shouting and shouting. Who knows WTH she wants.
And she gave me my paper last.
I even got my ledger paper out first! WTH. I DON'T LIKE HER.
And at the end, she continues nagging... AGAIN.

"Some rules i think you should know. Sitting for a test is like sitting for an exam paper. You don't take out your WHOLE ledger paper just to do one simple test...*Blah blah blah...she starts blabbering about exam rules*..."

WHAT ARE WE!? PRIMARY SCHOOL KIDS?! She even called us KIDDIES?!
DAMN pissed off. *URGH!* She can't even say a proper sentence without eating on her own words. Think b4 you talk! What kind of a teacher are you!
In short. She flirts, Shouts at every possible thing, bias to girls, Super duper UNBEARABLE!

...Fine fine...whatever already. I don't give a dam no more. Do what ever you want. I'll just give you rubbish work . Mind you, It's not only our class that feels this way. EVERYONE who was taught by her b4 feels like this. Nobody greets her properly in our class anyways. LOL xD!

My fan rantings : 
I FINALLY found the time to watch code blue season 2...
AAAAAAAAAHHHHH~~!! XD
It's full of ♥~ ♥~ ♥~
Wahaha xD!
I rmb now why i love code blue so much b4 xD!
TOMORROW IS FRIDAY xD
YAMANADE♥~

Laughter brings Joy,
Releases Negativity,
and leads to miraculous cures.
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YOSH~ Another week has passed ne...
So fast. Yupp! Time waits for no one na~

Yesterday was an Awesome day♥!
I went out with my mum, my aunt, and my cousin, Priscilla.
It's been some time since only the 4 of us gathered.
Time spent in the car was super funny!
I can't believe how much we did!
It was the first time we spent such a long time in Johor.
All the other time were quite short, but maybe because we had so much fun
and our time was filled up nicely and properly.
^_^ i will NEEEEEVER forget this trip EVER!

Well, Next week will be another week.
I do not know what will happen but i hope i can be positive about it.
I feel that there's too much Negativity in my life and too much Negativeness in me.
What should i do but to love everything around me? 
It's difficult, but what else can i do?!
"All because of..."
"...if only..."
All this, should not bother me.
someone told me to trust in God. I also tell myself i should trust in him...
Take things as it comes and don't give up.
...But do i have a choice? Give up what...?
There's nothing for me to give up , really...
All i want is to feel accepted, respected and to not worry about whether i will offend anyone because we would know each other so well.
is that too much to ask for?
It's just how i feel.
"The world doesn't only revolve around you. So why should i be bothered by it?! If i'm not respected so why should i respect you?" was what i thought sometimes. It's not right...

Maybe this seems like someone has offended me or something. But it's not. Just that, sometimes when i'm alone, i sorta take out my "memory box" and open it up to look back on them. sometimes I would smile to myself like i'm silly weird girl that just escaped from the mental hospital. Or, having a 180 degree attitude change and end up with these thoughts. Its at this times like this that i feel that the world is changing. it's taking a 360 degrees change...wait..that'll become the same...180 degrees...yes...LOL ^_^

SAA-TE~!
I shall do a short "Ganbatte" post xD
A post which will put a smile on my face xD

Yamato Nadeshiko~ ep 3 *kyaaa* ^__^ !
I LOVE♥ this drama!
not JUST because Tegoshi and Kame is acting in it.
I love it love it love it~!
AAH! Love yourself short PV is out too! ^___^
And The D-Motion MS live! Aaah~ I Melted when I saw Maru's smile *Mabushiiii~~♪* Haha!!
well, Not JUST maru of course... I thought Koki looked kinda Yakuza-like...
but still Cool xD!
Ah yes. Code Blue. how can i forget.
I haven't watch it yet =[
and you know what's worse?!
The excuse i give myself : "Too many medical terms...shall wait for subs..."
...Lousy huh...*Fades into darkness*
Wahaha xD can't wait fo Feb 10 when their single is released ^_^!
And NEWS has no news recently =[ *discussed this previously with Mx b4...*
i hope they have some activities tgt sooon =[

Jya! Mata ne!!
...though...does anyone ACTUALLY reads this shyt...?

You get to fill the blackboard of your life
With what ever you want.
The only thing you need to do,
Is to feel good.
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JHEMAE NEE-CHAN!! HAPPY BIRTHDAYY~~!
Wahaha xD
I hope you will have/ Had a wonderful WONDERFUL day nee!! xD

YOSHA!
first of all...IT'S THE 4TH WEEK ALREADY!!... of school =.=||
Yeahh. It still doesn't feels like a new year though.
But i am definitely feeling the stress that'll soon be coming straight at me like a bullet train.
URGH. I have CRAZY teachers...

There's P.E tml...*arrgghhh*
i don't wanna suffer again...=[! *PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE!*

Thank you MANXIN for you WINK-UP!!
don't worry, it's in GOOD condition!! xD
Hahah xD

What else...Hmm...NOpe! there's nothing else xD
I CAN'T WAIT FOR FRIDAYS~~!!
And i hope Memoirs of the teenage Amnesiac [ 誰かが私にキスをした ] Will air in Singapore [>_<]

Sometimes, the most beautiful discovery true friends make
Is that they can grow separately without growing apart.
I suppose there is a friend
in the life of each of us
who seems not a separate person,
however dear and beloved,
but an expansion, an interpretation, of one's self.
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Nothing much really..just that yesterday i got tortured by my PE teacher.
And i had choir practice..though it wasn't actually practice...just bonding time...

Again today, was horrible...soon after this post I have to go do homework and revise on my stuff...
I don't have a choice though...I have to do this if I even want to get to sec 5.

Well, apart from all this. I realise I have been such a horrible friend... I didn't know that you were in such a bad mood these few days and what have i done...Nothing. I don't know if its because of me, but I feel really guilty for not being more understanding towards you.

So yeah. Things haven't been sailing smoothly, but this are obstacles in life we have to overcome. Either I become stronger, or I sink deeper into failure and continue rotting...Its true isn't it.. When you feel bad about yourself, you block all the love and instead you attract more people and situations that will continue to make you feel bad for yourself...

Silence is no certain token
That no grief is there;
Sorrow which is never spoken,
Is the heaviest load to bear...
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Today has been... average.
Well, apart from getting tortured for in P.E,
I guess everything's fine? 
Hmm.. yeah. thats right...

Every single day, I try to be a good friend to my friends. It seems I have failed terribly.
To my friend, whom I have grown a "telepathy" since sec 2. The distance between us has widened and our so-called "telepathy" has disappeared, obviously. Was it becausewe are both in different classes or was it because we both have different interests, so we have nothing in common, thus nothing to talk about. I know people change. but what a drastic change this is. If this defines changes,I HATE changes. Why is it that I can't talk to you as freely as i can before? I know, if you see this, maybe you might get angry at me, I don't know. Because we never had the chance to really talk about it and what will happen if we DO talk about it face to face? What will happen? I don't know why, but it is really very sad. When I saw your post, "were really talking about me?" was what went through my head. What you said really struck me hard, and I really wonder if it was because of me. Honestly, I have been doing that too weren't I? Even if i had hurt you without me knowing, we wouln't know it right? because i didn't know i had done it, and you wouldn't talk to me about it too. So i wouldn't know that you were hurt because of my actions and you wouldn't know that I was the one who made you unhappy. And the cycle carries on... but really, if i really did that, can you please tell me, so i can apologise to you...

It's really difficult to be a good friend. Maybe i have been thinking too much. but Honestly, when i take a look around, Just how many people are my true friends who will listen to me, be by me when i'm sad, and allow me to learn from my mistakes. If i had done anything that upsets you, you should let me know so i can apologise to you and take note of it isn't it...but even i am like that...because I'm afraid that our friendship may break, or you might misunderstand me... I am not good at comforting people, but at least let me be a listening ear. if you keep quiet, how do i know what i could do to help you? or at least, what i should do at times like this. It's so difficult to keep quiet most of the time when you guys are talking about something of your own and i stand there for who-knows-how-long, just waiting to hear something that i can join in and have fun talking about on. Usually I'm the one who gets left behind by who knows how many people. So how should i react when you come tell me "eh, i see you like...everytime get left out by them like that." and you are also one who leave me for someone else?! What do you think i should say?! All i could do is just smile and nod my head. that's it. After that. everything else returns back to normal.

This feeling is the WORSE. I feel like crying but i can't. My bottle is always close to bursting. but it doesn't. Any idea how painful that feels...that-bottled-up feeling. I hate it...but what choice do i have? All i can do is change myself first before i expect any changes from others isnt it. Its really difficult to live life. The feeling of loneliness, emptiness...Everything...It really doesn't feel good when there's nobody to listen to your complaints...so i guess this is what i could do...I don't know if anyone would even read this post...It seems like at first, there's someplace that you belong to, but now that everybody is so busy...there's something missing in my life...Just what can i do... All i could do for now i guess, is to pray and forget about everything by the time i wake up tomorrow and concentrate on my studies...

Chapter : 1 - Prologue
Author: Kana / Claire
Pairing / Characters : NEWS
Genre: Romance , Supernatural, AU ...depends.
A/N: Will be a proper fic, with fake female characters, real male characters.
Disclaimer : I do NOT own the characters. Except for some.
Date started: Dec 27'09
Last edited : FEB - 3 - 2010

Summary:
The start of all depression happened when two warm and cheerful girls were abandoned by their parents. They went through everything a normal girl shouldn't be forced go through. Life isn't fair ; Life was never fair.
( We've been suffering for too long...what it feels like to lose what you love...I want to make others go through the same kind of torture we went through. )

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[This is the first time i'm writing something like this. So please do give me honest feedback! xD
I'll edit it from time to time as it's not exactly completed...pr at least...I'm never satisfied with it each time i read this.

Yoroshiku!
EDIT: i have adjusted and made changes. Please tell me what you think [>_<]
Reasons for female characters in the future posts: The reason is simple! cause i don't wanna get jealous of the real female characters! so just imagine that you are that "fake" character and all will be OK!
 That wasn't a right way to phrase it..]

Disappointed. I'm really disappointed.
( Mentally and physically TIRED. *Contains loads of negativity...* )